I’ve been feeling very not at peace. I’ve definitely felt stressed out and overwhelmed before, but something about this feeling is a little different–like a real sense of unease in my heart. As of late, there are four personal things I can make excuses and blame it on, but the good thing is that none of them are permanent, and I tell myself that I have it in myself to turn it around. But I’ve been feeling so overwhelmed and it’s been so difficult to refocus, and the cycle perpetuates. Right now I’m drinking green tea and listening to #10 on this list over and over and it’s chilling me out. All I ask is to survive until Fall Break. Two weeks! Also I need to stop playing Tetris Friends.

This weekend I was away for HACKMIT, so I’m once again drafting this blog post in advance, and I won’t be able to tell you anything about it until next week! It will be my first hackathon, so I’m quite anxious, but my team is experienced, so they’ll be taking care of me (I hope). I feel like a hackathon is something I’d like to experience at least once in my life even though I’m thoroughly intimidated by them, and since I didn’t take the dive earlier, I figured this would be as opportune a moment as any. When my friends asked me to join their team, I committed without thinking it through, which is the only way I can get myself out of my comfort zone, ya know, before my brain catches up and I realise what I’m getting myself into.