Only two reads this month, the last of which I just finished yesterday… and still working my way through The Count of Monte Cristo with Evie veryyyy slowly. I had the best news mid-month, and I don’t know if the normal reaction is to feel rejuvenated or to float in a haze like I have been. But now that I’ve had my moment of bliss, it’s time to get back to business—reading regularly, sleeping regularly, exercising regularly for the first time since quarantine, getting some sun, and continuing to keep up with classes.
February reads
This was the month I joined book Reddit. It all started with r/bookexchange. I’d been content creeping on Reddit for two years and enjoying the memes, but it wasn’t until I found this sub that I felt inclined to participate in the community myself. For a week I was obsessed with building my karma so that other Redditors would trust me enough to do a book exchange. After some research, I decided that 500 karma points would be a good goal to settle at, which I’ve reached, so I can chill out now. Anywho, I exchanged my paperback of The Hazel Wood by Melissa Albert with a Redditor for their gorgeous Vintage Classic Russians Series edition of War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy! Now I just gotta read it…
Souvenirs from 2020
dalgona coffee enamel pin – no longer properly socialized enamel pin – toilet paper enamel pin
“So what are you scared of?” he asks me at our last appointment. “I mean really scared of.”
I try to think about it. “I’m scared that if I can’t even handle this right now, how will I be able to handle bigger things in the future?”
He nods. He scrapes his moustache against his thumbs. “Bigger things in the future. What’s bigger than this?…
January reads
Has anyone tried StoryGraph as an alternative to Goodreads/Amazon? I created an account awhile ago but didn’t start playing around with it until the beginning of 2021. Unfortunately, I don’t love the UI or UX to put it mildly, and despite the modern minimal aesthetic, the app feels pretty clunky. I have so many thoughts that I couldn’t just cram into the intro of this post, but I just wanted to throw that question out there to gauge how people are liking the app. I haven’t heard people talk about it much and don’t get the sense that it’s caught on, despite all the buzz the beta site got. I will say that I like how you can mark books as DNFed and rate the pacing (slow/medium/fast) though. I think the DNF feature might have made me more liberal with my DNFs this month and… I’m not mad about it? I’m not planning to continue using StoryGraph though, so we’ll see how my DNF habits hold up.
New bookshelves!
I’ve always dreamed of having a wall full of floating shelves filled with books, so when I found two spare planks of wood at the Restoration Hardware outlet, I snatched them up. They’re not much, but they’re mine! Maybe more wood planks will show up at the outlet for me to swipe, and then I will be unstoppable!
That said, I do like how my limited shelf space has made me more particular about what books I keep in my collection, or at least it’s forced me to prioritise which books of my collection to display and which ones to keep stored in my bath tub (more on that later). Remember those five books I owned in multiples? I’ve sold some so now the only books I own in multiples are Breakfast at Tiffany’s and Little Women. Look at that character development :’)
In addition to culling my current collection, my new shelves have prompted a more rigorous criterion for new additions to my collection: Is it floating-shelf-worthy?? Although I had my shelves properly installed with hidden brackets secured to wall studs, I still don’t feel comfortable putting too much weight on them, so every ounce is precious. (A hardback has to be real special to make it!) So far, I haven’t felt the urge to buy any books, except for How We Disappeared by Jing-Jing Lee, which I fully intend to buy some time this year. Fingers crossed that it’ll be my only book purchase of 2021? For some reason I really want to buy a copy of The Brothers Karamazov too, but I’m not allowing myself to give into that one until I read my copy of Crime and Punishment.
Dealing with uncertainty, notes from Chanel Miller
I’ve been having more bad nights since December, nights where my head pounds from exhaustion but my heart races from anxiety, keeping me from the sweet release of sleep that not even the most relaxing nature sound podcasts could lure me into. I’m not unfamiliar with a sleepless night, but it’s never felt quite so physical.
So I gave up coffee, which was a big deal because I got a new espresso machine this past summer, a little luxury I looked forward to every morning that more than made up for the fact that I’ve only visited a coffee shop once since last March. Instead, I’ve been making fancy almond milk tea and hokkaido milk tea at home, which is just normal powdered almond milk tea and hokkaido milk tea but with frothed milk, courtesy of my espresso machine.
Anyways. I was having another bad night, 3AM and wide awake in bed, thinking about the dramatic email I’d write once the clock turned to a more socially acceptable time. Until then, I decided to dally with a podcast. An episode from Chanel Miller’s podcast, which she hosts with her sister Tiffany, had been sitting on my phone for awhile. It was exactly what I needed at 3AM.